bitch, everything.

I'm someone who usually operates well enough under stress. In fact, at many points in my life, stress was the only thing keeping me moving/from being a full-time fetal positioned lump of feelings.

But these past few days have been a doozy. I feel out of sorts, in limbo, nervos a flor da pele. And even though there are concrete things contributing to my "off mood", it's hard for me to pinpoint the exact reason(s) for my uneasiness, my insecurity in whoknows?, my dull sadness and default fearing.

DEEP ASS SIGH.

My grandmother says Do nothing until you can do something, so I'm just gonna ride this shit wave and blame the chaos (in my head and out) on retrograding Mars*.

*Astrology always has answers, ya'll. Check out what Elite Daily had to tell this Aquarius about wild ol' Mars:

If you know anything about Mars, the thought of this planet entering retrograde might conjure up apocalyptic images of the world ending in flames. Mars rules over your animalistic impulses, giving you your tendencies toward aggression, anger, passion, wildness, and fury. However, Mars also motivates you to go after your goals, bringing you that much closer to fulfilling your ultimate desires. Until Aug. 27, Mars retrograde will force you to reconsider the ways you lust after and fight for whatever makes you yearn for more.

On June 26, Mars enters retrograde in the sign of Aquarius, an air sign known for being concerned with preserving individuality, protecting your freedoms, and taking care of the collective consciousness. As it moves through retrograde, you'll be forced to reckon with the way you do these things yourself. Do you fight for your values loudly, intensely, and without apology? Do you frequently find yourself starting arguments that lead to nowhere? Are you courageous enough to speak up for those who don't have a voice? If you aren't happy with your answers to these questions, Mars retrograde is the time to reevaluate what you've been doing lately.

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